Center of the Universe

One of the most liberating realizations that I have ever had is that I am not the center of the universe. Oh sure, it sounds really cool to be the cause of all things that happen, however I think that by releasing the belief that everyone's behavior is somehow related to me, I was able to gain freedom from anxiety and was able to develop a much greater compassion for those around me.

There was a time in my life that I believed that everyone's emotional state of mind was somehow a result of something that I said or did. Every perceived slight created a sense of anxiety in me that I had somehow "done something" to upset that person or make them act that way. If a sales clerk was rude or inattentive, they were somehow responding negatively to me. If my partner was quiet or surly, it was because I had said or done something wrong. If my boss was dismissive, it must be because she was unhappy with my work. If a friend didn't return my call right away, she must be mad at me. You get the picture: I created my own stress and insecurity. What I needed to do was to take myself out of the equation. Chances were, their behavior had nothing to do with me anyway, and by not assuming that I was the cause of people's negativity, I was able to free myself from unnecessary anxiety. My overactive imagination became an impediment to developing happy and healthy relationships with those around me, so I decided to stop thinking that the world and everyone else's behavior revolved around me.

Another thing that I stopped doing is assuming that I understood everyone else's motivation. We've all been driving down the freeway when someone comes speeding along, tailgating and swerving in and out of vehicles. "What an asshole!" is usually our reaction. If this happens on a day in which we may be feeling a little aggressive, we turn into the idiot that we perceive that driver to be! We speed up or slow down so that driver can't pass. Or we flip off the person off or yell profanities. But let's reframe this: what if that person is really rushing to the hospital or experiencing some other sort of emergency? Maybe that person is not really a jerk at all, but just reacting to some stimuli that is unknown by us. By not assuming the other driver's motivation, we keep ourselves from becoming the asshole that we perceive them to be.

Many of us work in high pressure jobs, and unfortunately, people in the workplace don't always treat their colleagues with tact and diplomacy. But if we assume that our co-worker's short-temper or ill-phrased comment is a reflection of their opinion of us, we may be doing ourselves a disservice and harming an otherwise good working relationship. What if you just cut your co-worker a little slack, and instead of assuming that he or she is reacting to you, just chalk it up to them having a bad day? By not making someone else's behavior about you, you are able to handle situations and interact with people with much more understanding.

We all have a tough time when we feel as though someone is not being sensitive to our needs and feelings, but let's face it- it's not always about us. Sometimes it's just about them. You can save yourself a lot of grief by letting go of the belief that everyone's behavior is somehow a reaction to you. By not thinking that you are the center of the universe, you free yourself from everyone else's emotional gravity.

Wings

I held a butterfly with a broken wing;

I raced the dragonflies along the stream.

It made me wonder if it is better to be

beautiful and broken, or fast and free.

Birds of a Feather

What does your choice of friends say about you? We've all heard the saying "birds of a feather flock together," but are your friends truly a reflection of who you are and what you represent? Or does fate put people in our lives that become important to us irrespective of commonality?

With over 6 billion people on our planet, we have limitless opportunities to develop relationships with others. So how do we decide who becomes a part of our inner circle? Do we seek out those that seem familiar because of shared interests and/or values? Or are we attracted to our opposite in order to obtain some sort of psychological equilibrium or to challenge ourselves? Do we even consciously choose at all?

Perhaps is it more fate-driven. Maybe the universe puts people in our lives that give us what we need at the time. Sometimes people come into our lives to help us heal and to give us hope. These people may not always stay in our lives, but they provide an emotional life preserver to us when we need it.

Other people come into our lives to teach us lessons that we need to learn. These people may cause us great grief, by challenging us. Careful examination of these relationships often reveal a part of our own character or behavior that needed to change in order for us to grow. These relationships can be quite painful, however if we take responsibility for our role in how things played out, we can become a better version of ourselves.

The relationships that we form create meaning in our lives. They build us up and they tear us apart. We learn, we grow and we feel part of something bigger than ourselves. Our friends are there to support us, and sometimes call us out when they see us getting off track. Bottom line: we are pack animals. We are hard-wired to gravitate toward others, and to develop relationships with those around us. Perhaps it really doesn't matter how or why a person comes into your life at all; maybe a better question to ask yourself is what you are bringing to theirs.